‘I go through phases. Somedays I feel like the person I’m supposed to be, and then somedays, I turn into no one at all. There is both me and my silhouette. I hope that on the days you find me and all I am are darkened lines, you are still willing to be near me.’ -Mary Kate Teske
I guess I’d like to know that your life has gone as well as I had once hoped it might, and that what you have become is something that you can sit with at the end of the day and be proud of. I knew you were meant for great things, and I want you to achieve them (even if I may have experienced a moment or two of selfish jealousy in the midst of our separation). You deserve so many great things, not the least of which is my honesty.
There’s no time limit.. start whenever you want.. you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.’ -F. Scott Fitzgerald
For paths are irrelevant.. as long as you get there.
However, the future is always changing. It houses our deepest fears and wildest hopes. I can say that only one thing is certain, when it finally does reveals itself.. the future will never be the way we imagined it. We should all be more focused on today and the current moments in our lives where we find ourselves at a crossroads, afraid, confused and without a roadmap. The choices we make in these moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown.. most of us choose to turn around and go back. But once in a while.. people push on to something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. I have come to learn it’s only when you’re tested.. that you discover who you are and discover who you can be. The person you ‘can be’ does exist.. beyond the hard work, belief, and beyond the heartache, and fear of what lies ahead.
Sometimes though, we don’t even bother to hope for the best- we just plan for the worst. That way, you’re prepared for disaster and if the best happens, it’s a nice surprise. But disasters tend to strike when we invite them in. Allow yourself to hope and to dream, and to believe that the best will be… and it will be.
Why? Because when that coin is in the air.. you will suddenly know what you’re hoping for.
